Another New Year

Here we are yet again on the precipice of a new year. Last year at this time we had just started this little Blog and had high hopes and dreams that it would take off. It’s still plugging along, but has yet to become an international sensation. Lol. Honestly I’m not feeling quite as driven this year. Honestly I’m feeling a bit lost. Anybody else out there feel me??

I’m 52 years old, a stay-at-home Mom, and my boys are growing up quickly and needing me much less. I’m a licensed Speech-language Pathologist that needs to get my ass back to work, but I know that will mean a lot of stress and much less time on the Blog. I really thought I’d have everything figured all out by now. NOPE.

So over the Christmas Holiday, Anjanette and I had a heart-to-heart about what we wanted 2019 to look like, what we wanted to change and what we hoped to achieve. Lord I wish we had had a few shots before that conversation. It got heavy man.

So here are a few of the New Year’s Resolutions I came up with following our talk. Lord help me!

1.) Drink More. Care Less- JK. But seriously, this chick needs to lighten the F up!!!

2.) STOP spending money like I’m the Queen of England. – I am a Queen for sure, but unfortunately I’m not getting paid like one. Living within my means has NEVER been one of my strong points. Honestly it sucks. You know what else sucks?? Eating cat food in my 80s. I’ve gotta get my shit together!

3.) Manage my anger issues- I know, I know. You all thought I was a little ray of sunshine. Weeeelllll not so much. I was so hoping to be more mellow and understanding by now. Instead, as I’ve gotten older, my tolerance for stupid ass people and their stupid ass ways has gotten mighty low. I seriously hope to take up Yoga or meditation or Xanax in the New Year.

4.) Think about others more and myself less- Ya know what. I need to rephrase that. I do THINK about others a lot. Where I fail is actually turning my thoughts into actions. This year I want to start volunteering on a consistent basis. I have become a bit of a hermit since I quit work two years ago. Primarily because of #3 above. But I know I’m missing out by playing it safe.

5.) Step outside my comfort zone more (or at all)- I have become quite comfortable spending most of my time at home, in my comfort zone. I LOVE being home, safe and sound from all the scary stuff in this world, but that doesn’t allow for much excitement or growth. After all, I’m not dead yet!

6.) Take better care of this old body of mine- Yes that means losing weight!! I guess that’s a universal resolution. I’ve been letting the pounds creep up here and there. It’s time to put down the French fries and cupcakes and get my booty back up where it belongs (dang saggy menopause ass). Why is it soooo hard to eat like you’ve got sense when it makes you feel soooo much better??? While chocolate is soooo good, being able to button my pants is better. I mean when your FUPA hits your thighs when you sit on the toilet, it’s time to take action!

7.) Count my blessings and ignore all the other crap- This has always been a battle for me! I am definitely a glass half empty kind of gal. Some folks call it being negative. I call it being realistic. I do, however, spend way too much time focusing on what didn’t go right instead of looking for what actually did. I’m desperately trying to change the voices in my head (No they aren’t telling me to kill anybody. Yet. Lol).

8.) Don’t give up on this Blog- This blog has been an adventure and a huge accomplishment for a bunch of chicks that consider themselves tech challenged, to put it mildly. It is, however, a lot of work. Our hopes were extremely high for this first year, but have waned a bit in the face of reality. It would be so easy to just say “Nevermind”, but we are bound and determined to not throw in the towel just yet. We so appreciate our Followers, and we don’t want to let y’all down.

These are a few of the things I really want to work on in 2019. I know I won’t accomplish them all, but I should get some credit for at least trying. Right??

I wish you all an abundant year full of good health and happiness! Here’s to 2019!!!

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  1. Oh my. Sitting here in bed before dawn, sipping my covefe, checking email and bam, my face lights up when I see your email. I hadn’t realized how much I missed you all! I can totally relate to everything in this blog. As I’m running from paycheck to paycheck and wondering how the hell i got here. But, I am a glass half full and try to keep looking up. It’s hard at times. I do want 2019 to have more volunteering but i also want it to be the year of taking care of myself too. I’m a little lost at the moment and need to get back on track. Menopause is a time to reflect and adjust. Let’s embrace it. Cheers to 2019. I love you ladies. You make me feel like it’s going to be okay – we’re in this together!

  2. https://lifehacker.com/5955160/dont-compare-your-beginning-to-someone-elses-middle

    i believe this and by doing one thing better or different than i did yesterday is ok
    i can not look at someone else and make a wish i have to do it with the body, soul and mind i was given within my timeline
    you are allowed to have down time and times you screw up … the big man’s son died so we can
    give yourselves a big ole hug and take a deep breath
    leave the past behind (except for the lesson you learned) and make yourself happy

  3. I so enjoy reading your blog Antoinette! With all the craziness I am just now catching up! Totally can relate to your feelings today..
    Happy 2019!!

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